To get started in writing this blog, I do not know where to start. This is the exact same feeling I got when depression first started surging inside of me. I had no idea what it was. There were just those strange feelings which kept rising up until it became suffocating. It was not merely feeling sad because when I felt sad, I could easily distract myself with something else. When depression came over, I lost any words to describe it. All I felt was desperation. Getting over-frustated at things I could not control was probably the beginning of it all. Imagine you are in a situation too difficult to handle, a situation whose control is not in your hands but others’, a situation which can make all the other things start falling apart, and there is literally nothing you can do about it. You can only feel desperate, frustrated and devastated. Moreover, there is no one who can save you from that situation. You are all alone. And yet, crying and screaming will not change anything.

Depression without the understanding of its nature is like a monster waiting to stab their claws on your skin. You do not know what it is or where it comes from. You do not know whether it is caused by the damage in your mind or something else. You are wondering whether it makes you less normal than others. You are wondering whether it will make you experience life in a more terrible way than it already is. There are just more and more thoughts flooding your head. All of them are negative ones. In the end, you are eaten up by your own darkened mind. Your consciousness is just made up of all those negative thoughts which bring more frustrations and create more bad decisions.

It takes thousands of words, I guess, to define depression so that people can have a through understanding. It is as limitless as the horizon of “self”. Might be too complex and easily misunderstood. Here in this blog, I will define depression in many ways which could be understood by those who might even have never experienced it. It will take you the the dark side of depression into the bright side of recovery.